On a daily basis,there are a billion and one things that can crash my spirit, but I make a conscious decision to smile everyday no matter what.
On days when the common kitchen is dirty because some adults can’t clean up after their mess,
On days when I go for interviews and I am assured by the employer that I’ve got the job but,no one gets back to me or replies my emails,
On days when I want to be physically present but it’s only the phone that keeps us connected,
On days when I am out in the cold and have to wait 20 minutes for the next bus,
On days when the Wi-Fi in my room has a mind of its own,
On days when I want to shop but my bank account is not supporting the vision,
On days when I need a hug only my Mummy can give,
On days when I need a massage but end up in bed with none,
On days when I run for the tram or bus and watch it literally move away,
On days when I am reminded that I am black “Noire”, thank you for stating the obvious,
On days when the skies are grey and not even my spirit is gay.
On those days…
I talk to myself,
Act out a play,
Look in the mirror and make faces,
Tell myself jokes and laugh out loud,
Turn up the music and dance,
Listen to a sermon,
Crawl into bed and sleep,
Read a book,
Go for a walk,
Or prepare a Ghanaian meal.
It’s great to travel,don’t get me wrong but there is another side to being away from home.It is like admiring a beautiful red rose from a garden,breaking it off from its shrub and getting your finger pricked.
My rose is worth holding and admiring despite the blood I see oozing from my finger,that’s exactly how I feel.
I did not see all these coming,but I am glad I went through this season. I have settled down beautifully in France,too bad I will be leaving soon but truth be told,France has toughened me up.
I thought I was tough enough until the storms started to wage,I have learnt to smile through it all.
I have learnt to soldier on even when I don’t feel like it.
Believe you me,I am a better person thanks to highs and lows,the discomfort and comfort.God has also been faithful,for that,I am grateful.
I look forward to saving and going on many more trips,it is worth it all!
Thank you France.